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For many months I have been minding my friend’s nine year old daughter a few afternoons each week. Their family is going through a rough time and, although my friend also has an older son, she wanted the added stability of another adult while she was away at work because her daughter has been having anxiety attacks.

Although I love her children very much and I’m happy to help out and earn some extra cash at the same time, I admit, I’ve had moments when I’ve questioned whether my time would be better spent in continued pursuit of my art, writing and public speaking career. Like the other day when her daughter and I were playing with her new doctor’s kit. She really didn’t have my full attention, at least not until she asked me what kinds of things would cause her throat to close up! To avoid that potentially scary conversation, I said, “Why do you ask that?” In her “wise beyond her years” voice she replied, “Well Paula, I ask you these questions because you know so much!!!” She knows I’m a nurse so I chuckled and waited to hear what she thought I knew about medicine. But, in response to my laughter, she persisted, “No really, Paula, I mean it! You know how to take care of me; you know what to do to calm me down when I’m anxious and you now how to hug me just right. Really! I mean that. You hug me just right!!!

Well, they weren’t words of an art critic praising my latest painting or an editorial comment extolling something I just wrote, nor were they words inscribed on a diploma hanging on my wall. But they are words written indelibly on the walls of my heart; words that let me know I am doing something even more important right now and, according to the sweet young girl to whom it matters most, I’m doing it “just right!!!”

Let your spirit soar!
Paula

 

 

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Court in Session (#11)

 

I went to court today to support a friend who’s going through a divorce. As I sat there watching people waiting for a judge to rule on their case, I began thinking that the courthouse is just a big symbol of an even bigger problem in our lives. Of course, none of us like to be judged, but isn’t that what we do every day? For every loving thought we have, how many judgmental ones are there? From small irritations like inclement weather to more important issues such as going to war, it seems that we’re just not happy unless we’re judging someone or something.

But, what if everything that we see “outside” of ourselves is really just a reflection of what is going on “inside” of us? What if it’s our own unhappiness (conscious or not) that causes us to see things the way we do? For example, I remember a time that I was driving to an art class in the snow. It was getting slippery and I kept changing my mind about whether to continue or turn around and go home. Soon there was a motorist driving right next to me on the highway. Although there was plenty of room for him to either keep his distance or get around me, he kept passing me and then falling back, over and over again. It was making me so nervous that I finally found myself screaming at him, ‘WOULD YOU MAKE UP YOUR FLIPPING MIND!!!!! He couldn’t hear me, of course but, when I heard myself, I started to laugh. I realized that the driver was simply mirroring my own indecision! And, how interesting!  As soon as I figured that out, he exited the highway.

So, the next time you find yourself playing judge and jury, you might want to check out who’s actually in the witness stand. 🙂

Let your spirit soar!
Paula

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Recently, I wrote about how the universe is always giving us what we ask for. I’d like to add – it doesn’t always show up in the way we’ve imagined!

My 60th birthday is fast approaching and I had decided I would love to celebrate by going to dinner and a concert; something I’ve wanted to do for quite some time. When I heard that Yanni would soon be performing nearby, I excitedly went on-line for tickets. The best seats were already sold out and they were a bit too pricey for me anyways, so I decided to wait. The very next day I discovered that Triple AAA members can enter a drawing for four free tickets to see Yanni. There was my chance!

Then, last night, a friend called me with a last minute invitation to attend a concert with her. Because another friend had just treated me to dinner that afternoon to thank me for something, I was already dressed and ready to go so I said, “Yes, let’s do it!” After hanging up the phone, I began laughing when I realized what had just happened – a FREE dinner followed by a FREE concert at the Berklee Center for Performing Arts in Boston – a performance that was so fabulous, by the way, that at one point I thought, this might even be better than seeing Yanni!!!

I don’t know if I’ll win the tickets to see him or not. That would be awesome but there will be no disappointment if I don’t. After all . . .

I already got what I asked for.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!            

Let your spirit soar!

Paula

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Second Chances (#9)

Second chances

Have you ever noticed that as soon as you make a mental declaration that you’ve conquered a situation for good or that you’ll never do “such and such” again – the universe promptly gives you an opportunity to prove it? For example, you vow that you will never again disclose private information about someone else and, soon after, you find yourself in a very tempting situation. Or you resolve to have the courage to stand up and admit it the next time you make a mistake at work and, right after that, you make a huge one!

 But, if we don’t revisit these challenges, can we really be sure we’ve conquered them?

 Recently I’ve been practicing a new kind of forgiveness that I’ve learned through studying A Course in Miracles. (I’ll talk more about that later.) I’ve been able to successfully apply this seemingly radical form of forgiveness in many situations in my life, resulting in tremendous inner peace. I’d like to boast that I’m getting better at it but there’s still this one relative (who lives very far away) that I mentally struggle with. That’s OK. I don’t have to interact with her very often. And I’m sure the universe will give me a chance to work it out when the time is right.             

Oh! I just got the news . . . . . .

                                                                                           she’s coming to town.

Let your spirit soar!
Paula

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