One of the goals of my spiritual journey is to live each moment in the peace of God. I’m certainly not there yet but, I’ve come a long way over the past year since I first began my study of A Course in Miracles. This past week, a situation arose in my life that completely blindsided me emotionally. It left me feeing angry, hurt, fearful, and very defensive. I was clearly far removed from the peace I am seeking.
There’s a line in A Course in Miracles that says, “I must have decided wrongly because I am not at peace.” I kept telling myself that and fervently asking to see this matter differently, yet I constantly found myself mentally living in the future, conjuring up my arguments against what I perceived as someone else’s “wrong” thinking. I kept trying to meditate but even that wasn’t working because I wasn’t truly quieting those thoughts so I could hear the voice for God.
Yesterday, my anxiety level was so high that it led me to sit in my meditation space and declare out loud that I simply wasn’t moving from that spot until I had found some peace of mind. It took me a long time but gradually my heart rate slowed, my muscles relaxed and I entered a calmer state. I was finally able to surrender my fear for a moment and open my heart to love. When I opened my eyes, my first impulse was to pick up a deck of oracle cards for advice. The part of the message that really stood out was, “You may think you have it right, but if things are not going well for you (and they weren’t!!!), we suggest you think again.”
After a good laugh at myself, and from that lighter, more loving state of mind, I was then able to compose a letter to the “offending parties” that felt right to me. I stayed true to myself while still honoring their perspective and feelings and offering a solution that is not only workable but loving. So, although it took a more determined effort this time, I still say that meditation is the most powerful tool I know to reconnect with our real, loving selves; to reconnect with God. However, it only works when we truly allow ourselves to be still and listen.
Let your spirit soar!
Paula
Spirit Rising Ministries 
Paula, this was wonderfully written and a very good teaching. I’ve recently had some experiences like that and do know that sitting in silence and listening can do wonders, problem is when I’m in that state I forget that I have tools! So thank you for reminding us of one of them.
Peace,
Maureen
Hi Maureen,
I’m so glad you found this thought helpful. We all need reminders sometimes. The past few days I’ve had to spiritually ask for help every five minutes it seems!!! 🙂
Many blessings,
Paula