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If you’ve ever watched the popular vocal talent show, The Voice, you’ve seen the four judges selecting members for their team through a process called “blind auditions”. They sit with their backs to the singers so that their choice is based solely on the voices they are hearing. They cannot be distracted or influenced by the many other factors that would be evident if they were allowed to watch them sing.

I realize that I am a lot like the judges. I, too, am listening to, and comparing, different voices; the ego’s voice of fear and the Holy Spirit’s voice for love. The difference is, I usually forget to turn my back on what my eyes would tell me. I often choose which voice to listen to based on appearances. Gradually, I am learning that my eyes never show me the truth. True vision comes when I close my eyes (and ears) and listen only to the voice of love within.

On the show, ultimately, one voice is chosen above all others to be the best, but everyone knows that there are a number of superb voices worth listening to. Unlike the show, there are only two voices I can choose between and only one of them is real. The ego’s fearful voice only leads me to more illusion and suffering. The voice for love leads me home. I know it’s time to close my eyes and open my heart because, between these two voices, quite frankly –

there’s no contest.

Let your spirit soar!
Paula

My blog is late this week because I needed to more deeply process what I had begun writing about.

I was writing about the different personality traits of the many memory impaired seniors I work with: the one who is extremely opinionated and snobbish; the one who’s facial expression and whole body are so contracted in fear that she can only move forward in tiny, timid steps with someone pulling her along; the one who feels rejected if I don’t kiss her cheek each time I arrive, and again upon leaving . . . and so on.

I find myself very upset by these behaviors. I realize that they are so disturbing to me because they reflect unhealed aspects within myself. In the movie Sybil, Sally Field portrays a woman with multiple personality disorder. Her treatment requires her to become aware of – to acknowledge – those seemingly separated aspects of herself, take them back, and love them.

Until today, I think I thought that owning these behaviors within myself somehow meant that I was condoning or, even worse, admitting that I am those behaviors – that I am a judgmental, fearful, needy person too. But, now I get it. By loving and reclaiming those parts of myself and seeing us as One, those behaviors dissolve. If I am whole and complete – not separate from anyone or anything – then there is no one and nothing outside myself to judge, to fear, or to need!

I sit weeping with joy as I write. After years of study, I am finally starting to understand what Oneness means. What helped me was a recent new practice of mine. Each time I feel even the slightest annoyance towards anyone, I try to remember to tell myself, Don’t judge. JOIN! Quite often, I am able to instantly see past the behavior I am judging and connect with the love that was hidden underneath my own fear and extend it to that person. The wave of peace I experience is amazing.

This is the choice available to each of us in every moment. We can judge . . . or join.

Let your spirit soar!
Paula

The other day, at the assisted living facility where I work, one of the memory impaired residents entered a room and closed the door. The problem was, it wasn’t her room. When the housekeeper pointed out her mistake, the resident became belligerent and locked the door.

From the common living room where I was giving a presentation, I could watch what was going on. None of the staff, nor her grown daughter who had been called in, were having any luck convincing her that that room was not her home. Because they were being gentle and trying not to further confuse or frighten her, when I left a half hour later, the problem still had not been resolved.

On my ride home, I began thinking how perfectly that situation mirrors what I am experiencing as I study A Course in Miracles. The Course tells me repeatedly that this body that I believe I reside in is not my true home. That my true home is at one with God in Spirit – not in the world of form. It teaches this slowly and gently through 365 daily lessons so as not to overwhelm or frighten me.

As much as I swear I want to know and live the truth, my defenses go up and I dig in my heels. This body must be my home! I can see it, feel it, touch it. I can attack with it or be attacked. I have to protect it. I have to feed it. I experience pain with it . . . On and on it goes – the Course reminding me of the truth, and me inventing one scenario after another to disprove it – afraid to let go of the image I have made – unwilling to admit I might be wrong.

I wonder what it finally took to convince that woman that the territory she was so staunchly defending was not her home.

I wonder what it will take to convince me.

Let your spirit soar!

Paula

The other night, President Obama gave the State of the Union address. I did not watch it, but that’s okay. I know the only state of union I need concern myself with is my union with God. And, it’s not a state to be checked just a few times each year. It is a moment to moment awareness. What is my current thought? My current action? Are they in alignment with union? With love, peace and joy? Or, am I filled with judgment, anger and attack thoughts? If I buy into the belief that we are each separate, those thoughts would often be justified. But, if I accept (know) that we are one, love is the only response in every situation. After all, who would I be attacking but myself?!

Lesson 329 in A Course in Miracles states, “Today we will accept our union with each other and our Source. We have no will apart from His, and all of us are one because His will is shared by all of us. Through it we recognize that we are one. Through it we find our way at last to God.”

Oneness IS. It is not open for discussion. I can deny my loving union with all for as long as I want, but it does not change the truth. And, it is only in accepting the truth that I experience peace. So, each morning when I arise, and before I go to sleep each night, I continue to check the state of the union.

Let your spirit soar!

Paula

 

The CENTER #1/2015

I have decided to re-do the 365 lesson workbook from A Course in Miracles this year. I did it twice before a few years ago, but I have to admit it was only done half-heartedly; like I was just trying it on for size. I’ve been strongly guided to do it again; this time, giving it my undivided attention. I’m finally ready to do what it says – listen to Jesus’ voice exclusively.

In my last blog, I spoke of Googling pictures of Jesus smiling. Just before starting the lessons on January first, I decided to select one of those pictures as the background for my desktop. Not realizing how small the images were, I was quite startled to see a 2×3 inch photo in the middle of a large, totally black screen. My initial reaction was to change it immediately. On further speculation, I decided that there was a message there worth considering.

For starters – the mostly white photo, sitting in the middle of a black screen, certainly got my attention. It made it pretty easy to stay focused on it! And isn’t that what the Course is trying to have me do? Train my mind to stay focused on love instead of fear? I say I want to experience the peace and love of God in every moment, but do I devote every moment to God? Far from it.

I get the message. Just like that photo of Jesus on my computer screen, my attention needs to be centered on the voice for love, not fear. Love needs to be the central focus of my life. Not the background. Not the periphery. The CENTER. Everything else must radiate out from that. I need to let every unloving thought fade away into the surrounding darkness and focus only on the light.

I celebrate the light in you.

Let your spirit soar!

Paula

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Many of the spiritual texts I currently study claim that the source of their content is Jesus. I long ago stopped concerning myself about whether or not this was true, because the peace I have experienced from following the teachings has, at times, bordered on “the peace which passeth understanding” that scripture talks about. All of these texts say the same thing in different ways; that we are One, not just with each other, but with Jesus and with God. A Course in Miracles tells us that Jesus does not want our worship, but the recognition of our equality with Him. In The Jeshua (Jesus) Letters, a series of teachings imparted to Marc Hammer by Jeshua, Marc is told, “Is not so much that you are having an experience with Jeshua, but that you are. That was your lifetime.”

Most everyone I have ever known, myself included, has great resistance to the thought that we could be communicated to directly by Jesus. We have an even stronger aversion to the idea that we could truly be One with Him. Well I, for one, am growing weary of resisting the beautiful truth that is being shown to me. I am ready to begin looking at and embracing the truth. I know I’m ready because of what happened late Christmas Eve.

I was online researching Google Images when I suddenly remembered a recent conversation I had with a friend about how Jesus has been depicted over the years. Because of my childhood religious instruction, I often pictured Jesus being peaceful and loving, but never smiling. It occurred to me to Google “jesus smiling”. I scrolled down quickly to see how many rows of images there were when I was stopped by the sight of a very familiar face – my own! Right there alongside hundreds of pictures of smiling Jesus was the very same photo of myself that you see at the top of this blog. I was stunned. How could that be?!!!

I have no doubt that someone can give me a technological explanation for how my photo showed up alongside Jesus’, but the timing of it is too significant to ignore. I was ready to see the truth. And, what better time than on the eve of the birth of Christ. Technological explanations aside, I have no doubt that this was Divine confirmation that I am on the right track.

With best wishes for a holy, happy new year.

Let your spirit soar!

Paula

Tap #25/2014

Years ago, one of my high school friends had the habit of saying “you know” very frequently when she spoke. When we were sitting chatting with our English teacher one day, the teacher picked up a nearby pencil and began lightly tapping the back of my friend’s hand each time she said, “You know”. My friend soon became so self-conscious about trying not to say it, that she was eventually rendered speechless. We all laughed, but I never forgot the incident.

A Course in Miracles tells me that, “My meaningless thoughts are showing me a meaningless world.” My friend used to say “you know”. I’m beginning to see that, with each thought I have, I am thinking that “I” know, but I am being shown that, clearly, I do not. I’m beginning to see that what the world teaches us is inside out, upside down and backwards. So I have asked Holy Spirit to be my teacher; to correct all of my thoughts. And, He is always right there, ready to correct me at every turn.

I’m worried about my future. TAP.
I don’t have enough. TAP.
I feel guilty about . . . TAP.
I’m too tired. TAP.
It’s all her fault. TAP.

I can see where this is going. I am being rendered thoughtless. I guess that’s a good thing. It is only when the mind is rid of all its false beliefs, that the beautiful truth can be revealed.

This holiday season, may we let go of all our false beliefs of limitation and lack and let the truth of our Divine nature be written in our hearts. May we choose to close our earthly eyes and, instead, look upon the world with Christ’s vision.

Let your spirit soar!
Paula